Jun
12
So I will not be having to check myself in anywhere but I will be doing an intensive outpatient program over the next 7-10 days in order to sort through the rather serious funk I find myself in. As I said, I think it is a combination of many different feelings, regret, anger, frustration, feeling trapped, guilt, shame and whole host of other emotions. In addition, my daughter’s birthday is coming up in two weeks and I think that realization just reminded me about how bad I have messed things up, at least to this point. That said, there is a glimmer of hope. I CAN change things going forward and frankly when I look back on my posts from two months ago, I really had NO plan whatsoever to conquer this debt. I now have a plan, actionable takeaways and although the light is distant, there is some light at the end of the tunnel. If nothing else, I am going to learn the value of hard work, discipline and sacrifice, all good lessons for my daughter to learn.
I wanted to thank ALL of you who made comments earlier today. They really kept me level headed and made me want to take charge of things and get well again. I plan to do a lot of exploring of the emotions I have surrounding this debt. I know several of my readers are craving some more context to my debt and want to know the impact it has taken on me, other than in my pocketbook. Well, stay tuned because I think you are going to get exactly what you want. This blog truly is like therapy for me and I am truly humbled by the fact that my writing has inspired, soothed, or otherwise given hope to someone. I’m glad I could rely on my readers today for some ‘handholding’. Thanks again everyone and stay tuned for some interesting and revealing posts over the next few weeks.
Posted: June 13th, 2007 at 8:15 am
AHHH you make me smile, I too am on the I HATE, will not shop EVER Walmart.EVER.
Posted: June 13th, 2007 at 8:15 am
EVER!
Posted: July 11th, 2007 at 5:03 pm
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